An argument to start to the day, an unexpected twist in the plan, a little behind in time, and I was tense. When I noticed my teeth were clenched it was too late. (Place hand over mouth here to keep the scream inside.)
needed some chocolate. I needed to escape the chaos. I needed a friend to pour
out my woes upon. All my options felt somehow hollow. I knew they would not
really fill the empty place at the moment.
needed... Jesus. I needed to lean fully into the relationship that has never
let me down, or left me alone. In my mind I was drowning in a sea of "why
me, why today's" and his hand was reaching out to pull me up and out of
the storm. Would I grab on or turn away to food, to fleeing, or to other
relationships? Breathe, a little slower this time.
accepted the hand and grasped the love offered to me every moment of every day.
The argument still happened, plans were still changed, and we were still late,
but I remembered what was truly important in that moment: a relationship of
pure love and forgiveness. Then, and only then, could I go about my day at
The Lord himself goes before you and
will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do
not be discouraged. (Deut. 31:8 NIV)
spread out my hands to you; I thirst for you like a
parched land. Answer me quickly, Lord; my
spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who
go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in
you. Show me the way I should go, for
to you I entrust my life. (Psalm 143:6-8 NIV)
"There is always
sufficient reason for despair, but there is never
sufficient purpose." ~Robert Brault
Jesus, I can breathe easily
in our relationship. You are always beside me whispering love. Help me learn
how to overflow with the same love onto those around me. Amen.
*Originally Posted on 8/15/12